Why does everything seem to go wrong lately? Every thing that'll make me happy more then anything, decides to turn around and go for the worst.

My lover, Abel should have been arriving tomorrow morning on the airport, flying in from America. I love him, more then anything, and for months I've been aching to hold him in my arms. Tomorrow was gonna be the day I could finally hold him for real, feel his lips on mine and his love around me. We booked a week ago, his eye seemed to be doing better and he would probably lose the patch today or tomorrow.

Monday he came up with a dull pain in his operated eye (he was legally blind before and they fixed his sight). By tuesday they found out he had a tearduct infection and had to be treated immediatly with heavy antibiotic. There's a chance he'll have scar tissue on his cornea left from it, and that he'll need sugery again. hell they might have to do the entire operation again. He has been suffering with this one for weeks now, and god knows how long it's gonna take now. Myu next holiday wont be before end of April, so I can't fly over to see him before then >_<

I love him, more then anything. I dont care how I'll end up seeing him, I just have to see him. It just depresses me it won't be for anotehr 2 months >__<

*sighs* I miss you Abel, I love you. ._.